I only buy books that call to my soul. Doesn’t matter if they are fiction or non-fiction, I listen to my intuition and soul. So on Tuesday I was a little (and not) surprised when I kept feeling like I needed to go to Barnes & Noble and look at books. Yes it was a way to get out of the house after teaching but I truly don’t need any more books. There are stacks all over. Yet, there I was at the store wandering around and BAM! A new book on generational trauma was right in front of me.
The book is titled, Break the Cycle, by Dr. Mariel Buqué.
As I’ve barely started it, I can’t report much about it yet but so far I find it valuable. Currently I’m in the chapter on the body remembering trauma and how it shows up in various illnesses and diseases, especially cancer. Mariel talks about grief and the lungs quite extensively in this chapter. These are topics with which I have a lot of knowledge and experience.
Something was bugging me though about research I’d done last year about cancer, specfically lymphoma, the chakras, and spiritual meanings of certain diseases. This morning as I read and journaled, I looked this up online because I can’t remember which journal I wrote the information I discovered. I came across this article, The Metaphysical Cause of Cancer.
In this article the author suggests in part that we make soul contracts to have certain experiences, illnesses or diseases, as a way to remember our healing power or wake up more, or impact the healing of a soul group. Please read the article and the awareness that came to her through a dream.
This all hit home for me and I’ll explain why.
When I was married to my late Dutch husband Johan, he was diagnosed with throat cancer and lymphoma a month after we met. Yes, I still chose the relationship even though most “sane” people wouldn’t have.
I’d been a caregiver to my boys’ father when he had cancer so I was familiar with what it took to support a loved one and still live life. However, my soul was so insistent I be in this overseas relationship, I never stopped to consider the impact supporting someone going through cancer and being a caregiver on the other side of the ocean would have on me…until it affected my mental and physical health.
Throughout Johan’s cancer which led to massive lung infections due to the radiation damage to his throat caused aspiration pneumonia. The doctors didn’t diagnose this until he almost died more than two years after diagnosis, I had a strong sense his cancer, illness, and constant issues were both serving him and teaching me huge lessons. Even almost two years after his death, I’m still learning lessons from that relationship and those experiences.
I told Johan often that he was a great healer and could heal himself if he chose to look at the trauma and hard things of his life. He chose to ignore it. From what his family and friends told me - if it was ‘too hard’ he would ignore it. So he didn’t heal. Plus there was value in him being sick - people paid attention to him and took care of him - which he admitted to me.
I realized he and I were growing in our own ways through his disease and illness experience. What I had not considered was that an illness or disease could be taken on by a soul to heal a soul group in addition to the patient or caregiver(s).
This brought a whole new level of awareness for me because when my dad was diagnosed with lymphoma I was far away and not allowed to visit for certain reasons. But in some ways I was able to support my mom who was his primary caregiver and be a sounding board. This detachment from the experience also allowed me to heal on different levels and SEE where I had done tremendous healing work.
What does that mean? It means I was able to recognize when I was going to fall into an old pattern or jump in where I wasn’t supposed to or have some big emotional response which wasn’t required. It showed me how far I’d come in my healing and where I still needed work.
You could say there has been a lot of cancer surrounding me particularly in men I love. Does it follow me? I don’t think so because it isn’t with every man. It does make me question though if we are all part of a greater soul group I had not considered before and this has created greater healing for us all.
What do you think? Please read the article and share your thoughts about soul contracts, soul groups, healing, and can we heal from illness and disease if we explore the root and don’t just treat with whatever we’ve always been told will “cure” us.